If not for Tim . . .

If not for Tim I would still be eating processed food or no food at all. He does it all...shops, cooks, measures. I am thankful that he loves to bbq, even in the winter with the snow flying you will see Tim put on a jacket, step outside the kitchen onto the balcony and fire up the grill. I would cook the meals inside on the stove if he wanted to take a break from the routine, but that's just it, he really LOVES to be the hunter/gatherer and chef. I am able to stay paleo because of Tim. I do not have the discipline he does. He makes sure we have the right foods in the house. He has the energy to hunt and gather them if we do not. I, on the other hand, would rather go hungry than venture out. He has kept me from falling back on old habits. He will brave the cold outdoors to cook. No complaining. How does he do it? There is something about his mental control and drive that I do not have. It is the same with his approach to working out. I need to learn to be that person. A lot of life comes down to the mental. Are you a survivor or will you starve? While I ponder that thought my free range chicken is ready to eat with my side of broccoli and salad. Tim, once again, a wonderful meal! And pass the pepper please.

Back at it

After my first week back to working out at crossfit...
modified mini wods - kicked my ass!
My legs are cashed, my abs are cashed.
I needed to get back at it. Everyone is so encouraging. I know I will improve and get back to my former fit self and form. The frustration of not being able to participate since July 2009 has been excrutiating. Somehow Tim has put up with me. He is so supportive and helps me to know that it will get better.
I can feel the changes happening already to my body again. Even though I am only one week into it, I feel a change in my mental game.
Turn this starting over again into another chance to become healthier. I know I can do this . . .
I have done this before . . .
I am going to do it, better this time. I will use this as a learning experience.
I have learned how to listen to my body, be prepared to take rest days, be conscious of my abilities and shortcomings, take time to heal, get enough rest, eat my paleo foods, get hungry to go after it again. The thing I already know is that it is doable. I have the know how. I can be that person again.
I am . . . Back at it

Cheatin and Eatin

Yesterday was a cheat day. Last one. Pizza from Lou's. Tasted great - - paid for it today. Upset stomache!
Today's meal:
One large Diet Coke (still can't eliminate it)
Large spinach salad w/red peppers, avocado, walnuts, radishes, tomatoes, small amount of cheese, apple. Water.
No breakfast - bad. Had no time or food available.